Things have been happening lately that really make me feel obsolete in the area I work for in Second Life. It's a dark RP area and while that is all well and good I'm coming to find that I just don't fit anymore.

I've been working in this position for over two years, and honestly if anyone were to ask what I would have if I walked away I'd have to say nothing. I'm not a builder or scripter so I haven't earned any money on Second Life. While the group I work with I care for it's not something anyone could really understand. It's like an artist being proud of a painting that something in him knows will never be accepted by anyone but him.

Dark RP isn't all hugs and kittens, I know that. I find in me something though that is having trouble not only accepting it but even listening to people talking about it. I've come to think it being fine for the area, just not my group. Now that it has worked its was in I'm stuck.

I also talk about Opal Island and New Gomorrah, both places that I thought were absolutely beautiful in Second life, both revamped to "fit their surroundings" and as such both lost. I know it will sound silly but the loss of both of those forms really hurt, at what point do you stop conforming and just be yourself?

So yeah just me being an old man still in his 30's.